Is there anyone who isn't glad 2008 is over? Its been one hell of a year, it may not have been personally my worst year,but I think the general consensus among most people is that it would be better if this year was just forgotten.

2008- the crappy parts:
-My stressful transition into Univeristy student life, which almost caused me to alter my dream of my future career
-My dad's 6 month bout with depression
-Other family problems
-My continous stressing about money and how I'm going to pay for my education
-The economy sucking balls in general
-The never-ending senseless war in Iraq
-The greater than usual amount of celebrity deaths, some of which I really liked :S
-And now ofcourse, the massacre going on in Gaza..how fitting for this horrible year.

2008-the good parts (and yes, there are a couple):
- Obama becoming the president-elect
- Being generally healthy and well
- Doing better than I thought/ surviving my 1st semester of univeristy
- Last, but not least the world hasn't exploded/ we haven't ALL begun killing each other..what more do you want??

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During this dreadful week I have encoutered 2 types of viruses. The first one being a computer virus. Don't ask me where it came from, I was just visting my regular websites when all of a sudden my computer went fucking crazy and began bombarding me with pop-ups. I had to redo my entire computer, which ofcourse meant losing like 1 and a half years of stuff that has been accumalating on my computer. And ofcoooourse I didn't bother to back up anything. The second virus is an actual, you know, a virus of the human variety. I feel miserable and gross. I have my retarded younger brother (sorry, that wasn't very PC of me and comparing my brother to them was probablly offensive) to thank since he is just now getting over a cold. I told him he was gunna make everyone sick with the way he spread his germs around without a care, but he is incredibly inconsiderate so I wasn't suprised when my mom and I woke up this morning half dead.

Excuse me while go cough out a lung and re-install my 2478908 programs.

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I have been waiting for this day since Obama announced his candidacy almost two years ago. I jumped out of bed this morning because I was so excited. If the polls are correct and people don't get overconfident and complacent, history will unfold tonight. Barack Obama will become the first black president of the United States of America. Ending 8 years under the disastorous and moronic Bush administration and preventing four more years of the same under John McCain.

Tonight seems too long to wait..I want results right now!! Make sure you vote everyone!! Because it has never been more important.



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I've been feeling the need to blog about something Halloween related all day but honestly Halloween is no fun anymore. I will not be giving out candy tonight instead I'm going to lock myself up in my room and force myself to work on my psych assignment. I kinda wish I had a much younger sibling to take out trick-or-treating though.. but only so i could steal some of their candy ;p Junk food is my life.

In other much more exciting news.. theres only 4 MORE DAYS until the election. Four more days until history is made and the United States of America elects it's first black president. Am I confident he'll win? Hell yes. Obama has all Kerry's states locked down with double digit leads. All he needs is Virginia and its over. So that means all he has to do to get an electoral majority is win Virginia, or Ohio, or Florida, or Colorado. And the prospect of that, according to the polls, is very likely. I'll be watching 9hrs of coverage on Nov.4th live at http://www.theyoungturks.com/ which is definetely the place to be on election day.

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I've had multiple moments where I've wanted to "blog it out" but everytime I've gone to type I can't even seem to get a proper sentence out. I think it's because mind has been everywhere lately, pulled into a thousand different directions because of school and personal life. I've made it through half of my mid-terms with my sanity still intact (doing well on the actual tests is another issue)..hopefully once I get them all over with my mind and life in general will become a little less hectic.

Oh! And I forgot to mention I finally got to vote for the first time in the recent election ( I don't remember when it was, sorry I've lost all sense of time aswell). I was really excited to finally be able to contribute to society and do my part, ofcourse this excitement was killed when on the day of the election my mom kept yelling at me trying to convince me not to go because it was raining outside and I had to take the bus. Yes it sounds dumb but it made me soo angry. She kept saying..why you wanna vote all of a sudden?! Me: uhh this is the only election that has happened after my 18th birthday? Her: Who cares! I never voted in my life! Only crazy people would go out in the rain to vote! At this point I was to frustrated to even begin to argue about why its important to vote and how many people would kill (and do kill) for the right..she wouldn't have listened anyways, arabs are closed minded and stubborn like that. Sorry I'm not as uninformed as you are mom, sorry I give a shit. She's such a great role model don't you think?

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Okay so this entry is dedicated to my love of the Gosselins, the family with their own t.v show Jon & Kate Plus 8. If you haven't seen this awesome show, it's about a couple with 8 kids (Yes, 8!). Which consists of: The 8 year-old twins Maddy and Cara, and the 4 year-old sextuplets Leah, Alexis, Hannah, Collin, Joel and Aiden.

I am completely obsessed with this show, I love how organized Kate is and how she has raised her kids to be very well behaved and I love Jon's laidback attitude towards his kids and how he really steps up to help as a husband. Not to mention how adorable and funny each of these kids are..Am I crazy for kinda wanting to be in Kate's shoes? haha yes, I think so.

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* Just a heads-up. What I'm about to say may seem over the top, but no one has any idea how bad it is not even close friends or relatives..its the Arab way, have everything fall apart behind closed doors and be fake as fuck in front of everyone else*

Tomorrow is Eid, which I am in no way shape or form looking forward to..I have no problem with the actual holiday its the PEOPLE I have to spend it with. Its sad but spending a whole day with my family is like hell for me. I just can't stand these people.. the constant hypochrisy, the plain stupidity, the closed mindedness, the un-believable sexism & their pathetic attempts to hide it, the constant screaming match by the 2 people who should be setting an example for the rest of us, being treated like shit and feeling completely under appreciated..and worst of all the disgusting fake "we're a happy family" bullshit they try to pull infront of everyone else.

I pray to God everyday to get me away from these people so that I can start over if my own family and show them wtf a family is really suppose to be, this day will never come fast enough.

So you know what I'm looking forward to tomorrow? Eating after a month of fasting. And thats about it.

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I had a friend forward this to me and thought it would be useful/interesting for others to read aswell, especially during the month of Ramadan.

* SIGNS OF WEAK IMAAN *
01) Committing sins and not feeling any guilt.
02) Having a hard heart and no desire to read the Quran.
03) Feeling too lazy to do good deeds, e.g. being late for salat
04) Neglecting the Sunnah.
05) Having mood swings, for instance being upset about petty things and bothered and irritated most of the time.
06) Not feeling anything when hearing verses from the Quran, for example when Allah warns us of punishments and His promise of glad tidings.
07) Finding difficulty in remembering Allah and making dhikr.
08) Not feeling bad when things are done against the Shariah.
09) Desiring status and wealth.
10) Being mean and miserly, i.e. not wanting to part with wealth.
11) Ordering others to do good deeds when not practising them ourselves.
12) Feeling pleased when things are not progressing for others.
13) Being concerned with whether something is haram or halal only; and not avoiding makroo(not recommended) things.
14) Making fun of people who do simple good deeds, like cleaning the mosque.
15) Not feeling concerned about the situation of Muslims.
16) Not feeling the responsibility to do something to promote Islam.
17) Being unable to deal with calamities, for instance crying and yelling in funerals.
18) Liking to argue just for the sake of arguing without any proof.
19) Becoming engrossed and very involved with dunya, worldly things, i.e. feeling bad only when losing something in terms of material wealth.
20) Becoming engrossed and obsessive about ourselves

LISTED BELOW ARE WAYS TO INCREASE OUR IMAAN
1) Recite and ponder on the meanings of the Quran. Tranquillity then descends and our hearts become soft. To get optimum benefit, remind yourself that Allah is speaking to you. People are described in different categories in the Quran; think of which one you find yourself in.

2) Realize the greatness of Allah. Everything is under His control. There are signs in everything we see that points us to His greatness. Everything happens according to His permission. Allah keeps track and looks after everything, even a black ant on a black rock on a black moonless night.

3) Make an effort to gain knowledge, for at least the basic things in daily life e.g. how to make wudu properly. Know the meanings behind Allah's names and attributes. People who have taqwa are those who have knowledge.

4) Attend gatherings where Allah is remembered. In such gatherings we are surrounded by angels.

5) We have to increase our good deeds. One good deed leads to another good deed. Allah will make the way easy for someone who gives charity and also make it easy for him or her to do good deeds. Good deeds must be done continuously, not in spurts.

6) We must fear the miserable end to our lives; the remembrance of death is the destroyer of pleasures.

7) Remember the different levels of akhirah, for instance when we are put in our graves, when we are judged, whether we will be in paradise or hell.

8) Make dua, realize that we need Allah. Be humble. Don't covet material things in this life.

9) Our love for Subhana Wa Ta'Ala must be shown in actions. We must hope Allah will accept our prayers, and be in constant fear that we do wrong. At night before going to sleep, we must think about what good we did during that day.

10) Realize the effects of sins and disobedience- one's imaan is increased with good deeds and our imaan is decreased by bad deeds. Everything that happens is because Allah wanted it. When calamity befalls us- it is also from Allah. It is a direct result of our disobedience to Allah

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This video was created out of sheer bored-ness after I discovered my brother's laptop had a webcam on it ( & theres also the fact that our parents had people over for dinner and we were trying to avoid them and their 234847 kids) excuse my gross looks this was after I'd been at school all morning and had worked all afternoon/evening. It's pretty random/stupid and probablly not worth watching but I'll post it anyways... and yes I'm always this crazy/hyper/stupid when I'm with my brother. [you'll have to turn your volume up, sorry the sound is kinda low for some reason



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I was debating whether or not to make this since I literally have no time to be doing fun extra things like blogging, but if I don't do it now on my one day off (I work on saturdays and tuesdays) I probablly won't do it all week. Why am I so busy and stressed? University courses ofcourse. My first day of classes happened to be on a wednesday, the busiest day on my scheduel (3 day classes and a 3 hr night class). As you might imagine I was completely overwhelmed with the work load. I hadn't thought that university was going to be such a big step from highschool, I kinda feel like I wasn't prepared enough in highschool. I've got soo much to do/remember that I literally have 6 different to do lists scattered around my desk. Couple that with the fact that the program students are suppose to use to access class notes and assignments so they can be printed off is not up and running yet so I've been madly writing everything out by hand and haven't had the time to sit down and memorize much. I'll also take this time to complain about my teachers ( even though I'm sure most college students go through this) about 75% of them have thick, thick accents and some of them have the tendency to talk very quietly leaving me straining so much to hear/understand them that I leave class with a headache.
AAAND on top of all this I'm fasting.. Oh yeah Ramadan Mubarak everyone!

/end of my bitching.

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My instant reaction to McCain's VP pick was: Oh Shit.
McCain has chosen Alaska Governor Sarah Palin as VP. Its completely obvious what he's trying to do, he wants to appeal to those crazy supporters of Hillary's who were completely behind her but aren't sure whether they will now be voting for Obama or McCain, or even at all. I hope these so-called "Democrats" aren't so dense that they fall for this Republican tactic, but I wouldn't be surprised if they did.

Right after my reaction of "Oh Shit" and I couldn't stop myself from laughing at the idea of McCain picking Sarah Plain as VP of the United States. The man chooses a former beauty queen with about two years experience in office ( when there is far more qualified female GOPs to choose from), no foreign policy experience, no real connection to Washington, apparently no idea what a VP does, who's been investigated for abusing her authority, and whose husband works for a major oil company?

This whole time McCain's campaign has been running on the fact that Obama isn't experienced enough, and then they pick the least experienced female they can find?

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Tuition payed - Check.
Sign up for classes - Check.
Find/Buy the 348654 books I need - Check.
Go school supply shopping (One of my all time fav things to do :P)- Check.
Buy back to school wardrobe - unfortunately this will remain unchecked until I find the time/ the money.

The countdown is on! Only 7 days until I officially begin my university courses at my local college!! At first I was totally excited..now I'm getting nervous. Will I like my instructors? Will I be able to keep up and understand what the heck is going on in my classes? Will balancing school and work be too much? Will I get lost searching for my classes and have a panic attack on the first day? (This one is compeletly possible since I have one of the worst senses of direction known to man & it took me about 30 mins to find my locker even though i had walked by it twice during registration)

And most importantly, will college be what I always thought it would be?

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Ugh, I need to change my blogskin..this one just doesn't make me feel like blogging, I know, I'm weird. My life these days has been work, work and more work. I can't wait for college, my brain feels like its melting away as a do the same repetitive mundane tasks at work. College is less than a month away now..Can't wait!

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I'm home early from my craptastic job (why can't I find a desk job, or a magical job I could do from home??), and I'm feeling terrible. All of a sudden I began feeling really dizzy (which is rare for me i almost never get dizzy) then I felt sick to my stomach to the point where i thought for sure I was going to throw up then and there. I somehow managed to make it home and I'm still feeling like shit. The weird thing is I began feeling sick right after I had finished my break, all I had was water, so it couldn't have been from anything I ate...wtf is wrong with me?!

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What I'm about to describe is one of the many embarrasing moments that occur on a daily basis in my life

So today I got up(at 1:00p.m might I add) and my mom asked me if I wanted to go with her to Wal-mart to pick up somethings. Now usually I would be hesistant to go on a boring shopping trip with my mother but I quickly agreed since I had been sitting at home for the past 5 days just waiting for someone, ANYONE to call me in for an interview. Yes, being un-employed has made me into the laziest person known to man. Anyways, we get Wal-mart, my mom finds what she needs quickly and since we're in no rush we decide to walk down some random aisles for no reason. Somehow we end up in the toy aisle and my mom makes one of her lame jokes about buying her 18 yr old daughter a barbie. I told her I wanted one, she thought i was kidding, I wasn't. Lol, but anyways we get to the end of the toy aisle and my mom pushes her cart passed two 10-12 year old girls holding Hannah Montana 3D glasses. My mom stops and says to me arabic, where did those girls get those glasses??? I was like What? Why? and she says cuz I want one! Before I could start dying from laughter she already tapping them on their shoulders asking where she can find ones like theirs. The two girls looked alittle suprised at first but tell her that they are at the front of the store by the cashiers. My mom then proceeds to the front of the store and yells at me to follow her. Once we get to the front of the store I wait for her a few feet away for the cashiers as i watch her search for the 3D glasses. After a minute I turn around and start laughing as i begin to think all the TEN YR OLD GIRLS have taken the remaining ones. Right as I turn around again all I see is my mother running towards me smiling, waving two 3D glasses in the air. My mother then yells See! I told you I'd get them! Do you want one??! I was like: ...No mom, I really don't.

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I don't know if this is a problem that effects other bloggers, but its definetely(I've got to find another word to use to replace definetely, I use it far too often) something that effects me.. have you ever felt the need to blog your feeling about one certain person but are too afraid to because you know the details in the post will make it obvious to that certain person that your talking about them? And whats worse is that the person is one of the rare people you actually give a shit about and a person who's feelings you don't want to hurt? Lol I don't know if anyone could follow that, but yeah..thats where I am at right now. Sometimes I wish i had opened up a "friends only" Live Journal account, that way I could control who visits my blog. Although mine would more likely be a "strangers only" blog.

Btw, I think its important to note that I typed this entry with only 2 fingers since the rest of them have BBQ chips crap all over them & I was too lazy to get up and wash my hands, but at the same time didn't want to get my laptop dirty :D

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Yes, I finally got around to changing my blog skin! I've been thinking of doing it for awhile, the problem was finding a skin in the format/style I wanted. I'm pretty happy with the way it looks (for now), but the pink may get old really fast for me. I usually gravitate towards darker layouts that are more graphics heavy, so this is definetely something different. Enjoy! And any opinions are welcomed.

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